Live life every moment

What is that one thing a child has that we lose as we grow. Is it the innocence, the charm or the diapers ;) It has to be the confidence a child has. As we age, somehow, our mind becomes more and more skeptical about things. Infact there are times where we accept defeat without even trying.

I realized this looking at my own daughters grit to just get up and walk. The entire transformation an infant goes through from her first breath in this world to the stage she reaches where she speaks a few words is amazing.

Let me quote an example. Suppose you fell off a height, what would your reaction be? Fear, panick and probably dread of what's going to happen. Now try lifting an infant up in the air and catching her back, a game we all play with children. Her only reaction would be laughter. Thats the power of confidence. The confidence she has in you, that you will not let go no matter what. The confidence that all will be well as always. This confidence is what makes her enjoy the moment of being in the air.

Just the same way, keep your faith in yourself and in the almighty above. Things will always fall in place and all will be well. Live life every moment.

Homesick.....

Life is so funny at times, when you've got everything and yet nothing. I always wanted to be here, where i am, all my life. I don't exactly remember how this desire popped in my brain, but my father once told me in Class 9 that this wish of working with computers came as early as when i was in Class 3 and has never left me! Inevitably, my only choice was an Engineering in Computers and here i am a software professional. Sometimes life is such a struggle, and no all the years were not easy, but something kept me going.

I was very proud of all i have done amidst all my challenges, esp on my first onsite assignment. Singapore is a beautiful city and for a person like me who loves to see places, it was a wonderful opportunity to start with. But like i said, life is funny. I have all i need. A loving supporting husband, great parents and inlaws, and such a wonderful baby, a good career to build on, in the field i always wanted to be in and i still love my job. But yet, there is something missing. The face of my daughter all smiles and running around the house playing with me haunts me.

We homosapiens, are always in search of something. There is always a void which needs to be filled in. We can always find something to improve!

I walk back home tonight, counting my days of stay abroad. Counting the days to hold my daughter and sing to her (our crazy songs :)). Counting the days to cook for my husband. Counting days to laugh together! Counting days to quarrel with my mother.

I am coming home.....humming a song all the way.....to be with the people i love so much.